I was doing follow up. I couldn't find you ... or you. [She studies Kate for a moment.] And one of my abilities—it's not a sure thing, so I left room for doubt. There are a number of people here with the same abilities, it's just ... [She allows that to trail off.]
The pieces fell into place. [She sighs.] I haven't told anyone. I won't tell anyone, not even Matt. [That seems important to add. However ...] Though if you run into him, he'll know. There won't be the same room for error.
[ The odd thing is that that doesn't worry her. Matt can know about the uniform and her nightly activity. She holds no doubts he would use it against her. It's the other thing she keeps from him regarding Dent that's cause for worry. ]
I got ported out for a couple of weeks.
[ She finally lifts the sunglasses from her face, resting them against her head. ]
[It's a filler remark about Matt's capabilities, and she doesn't focus on the porter remark for long, taking in Kate's features. The dark rings under her eyes seem to mark her with the same kind of disposition that Loki had when he came back. Asgardians don't really have dark rings, but ... the look is similar enough.]
Did you go back to something bad? [The statement with Renee is telling, but Kate isn't certain if she's supposed to be assuming that's the problem, or if it's something else.
It's hard to say. She's spoken to Kate a bunch of times, but does she really know her?
She never does. She thinks a minute could be spared if not a day, but she's never been quite so lucky. It had been June tenth one second and then it was the twenty-seventh another second later, leaving her head spinning for a moment. ]
That happens sometimes. People disappear, but they aren't... anywhere.
[ It may not be an accurate explanation. This level of science goes beyond her. If she's not here or back home, where does she go? ]
Kate doesn't say it, but it's obvious. Not everyone goes home to something terrible like Loki did. He just had a bad run of it, which is unfortunate. Her lips purse, and she begins to understand the depth of what happened, and the depth of her previous conversations with Kate, too.]
You've been here a long time. You've lost a lot of people, but you keep not returning. [She studies her.] I'm sorry, Kate.
[ If there had been any irritation before, it seems to have dissolved into the sticky, hot air. All that's left in Kate now is exhaustion that she can feel finally sinking into her bones. ]
A lot of them are better off back home.
[ Even Renee who's about to face hell. Losing the respect of her colleagues, losing her partner, her parents, Vic... ]
Kate, you wouldn't be wearing appropriate sunglasses if you didn't feel anything about it.
[Kate isn't the type of person to sulk about those losses herself. It's something that scares her about herself, and her ability to pull herself back up and keep moving. The fact that she's aware of it means that other people are different. She knows it, and she prefers it.
No one's like Kate Bishop. Sometimes ... most of the time, it's better that way.]
[Says Kate, unaware that most of her moments of confiding in others are external. But she'll never be fully aware, not unless someone finally points it out.
Still, she shakes her head and looks away.]
Anyway, if you need help on ... the other part of our lives, you can call me.
[ Sophie had told her the same thing years ago when they were still young and maybe a bit idealistic.
A lot's changed since then and Kate's had to learn to do what she needs to alone. There's no turning back to the people who have hurt her or worse, lied to her face for chunk of her life. ]
I'll keep it under advisement.
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[There's something about Kate's response that makes Kate think that she's not going to really take it under advisement. There's also something that tells her she's not the first person to try this.
She's going to have to report back to Matt. After all, Kate can't help but be a busy body, and it's not like she has to throw in "and she's Batwoman" while being overly concerned.]
Good. [It's said even though she doubts that's going to happen. Kate wants to make it sound like she's taking the other Kate's statement seriously.]
[ She takes a step back, reaching up for her sunglasses and hauling them back over her eyes. She doesn't want to argue this with someone who's lent a hand in the search for Renee. She owes her that much. ]
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The pieces fell into place. [She sighs.] I haven't told anyone. I won't tell anyone, not even Matt. [That seems important to add. However ...] Though if you run into him, he'll know. There won't be the same room for error.
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[ The odd thing is that that doesn't worry her. Matt can know about the uniform and her nightly activity. She holds no doubts he would use it against her. It's the other thing she keeps from him regarding Dent that's cause for worry. ]
I got ported out for a couple of weeks.
[ She finally lifts the sunglasses from her face, resting them against her head. ]
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[It's a filler remark about Matt's capabilities, and she doesn't focus on the porter remark for long, taking in Kate's features. The dark rings under her eyes seem to mark her with the same kind of disposition that Loki had when he came back. Asgardians don't really have dark rings, but ... the look is similar enough.]
Did you go back to something bad? [The statement with Renee is telling, but Kate isn't certain if she's supposed to be assuming that's the problem, or if it's something else.
It's hard to say. She's spoken to Kate a bunch of times, but does she really know her?
The answer is pretty clearly "no."]
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[ At all.
She never does. She thinks a minute could be spared if not a day, but she's never been quite so lucky. It had been June tenth one second and then it was the twenty-seventh another second later, leaving her head spinning for a moment. ]
That happens sometimes. People disappear, but they aren't... anywhere.
[ It may not be an accurate explanation. This level of science goes beyond her. If she's not here or back home, where does she go? ]
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Kate doesn't say it, but it's obvious. Not everyone goes home to something terrible like Loki did. He just had a bad run of it, which is unfortunate. Her lips purse, and she begins to understand the depth of what happened, and the depth of her previous conversations with Kate, too.]
You've been here a long time. You've lost a lot of people, but you keep not returning. [She studies her.] I'm sorry, Kate.
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[ If there had been any irritation before, it seems to have dissolved into the sticky, hot air. All that's left in Kate now is exhaustion that she can feel finally sinking into her bones. ]
A lot of them are better off back home.
[ Even Renee who's about to face hell. Losing the respect of her colleagues, losing her partner, her parents, Vic... ]
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[Kate isn't the type of person to sulk about those losses herself. It's something that scares her about herself, and her ability to pull herself back up and keep moving. The fact that she's aware of it means that other people are different. She knows it, and she prefers it.
No one's like Kate Bishop. Sometimes ... most of the time, it's better that way.]
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She lifts a hand to signal silence. ]
Don't.
[ If she hears anymore, those walls might crack. ]
Just leave it, Kate.
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[Says Kate, unaware that most of her moments of confiding in others are external. But she'll never be fully aware, not unless someone finally points it out.
Still, she shakes her head and looks away.]
Anyway, if you need help on ... the other part of our lives, you can call me.
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A lot's changed since then and Kate's had to learn to do what she needs to alone. There's no turning back to the people who have hurt her or worse, lied to her face for chunk of her life. ]
I'll keep it under advisement.
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She's going to have to report back to Matt. After all, Kate can't help but be a busy body, and it's not like she has to throw in "and she's Batwoman" while being overly concerned.]
Good. [It's said even though she doubts that's going to happen. Kate wants to make it sound like she's taking the other Kate's statement seriously.]
See you later?
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I'll see you around. Thanks for your help.
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No problem, Kate.